Last month of the year .

I’m not settled, I haven’t figured out my life.
There isn’t anything I would like to do in this world that doesn’t involve selling and buying. I’m getting tired and weary of it all. Too much going on to end it but not enough to want to continue. She’s seven now, she wouldn’t understand. I don’t want her to feel what I do, this undying want that feels like eyes are being gouged.
I hate that feeling of what I should’ve. This feeling isn’t holding me back, my lack of should is. Why am I, better yet why am I not. This survivor of the fittest thing sucks. Why am I the polar opposite of Jay z. He wrote a bunch of shit he goes through and gets wealth I write a bunch of shit I go through and barely have health.
What was I doing on 2001?
I like these women, but I have the sense that neither of them likes me. I try to hard, but I feel if I stop I’ll have to explain why. I have an appetite for giving up. I have done it for years. I can’t recall any thing that I have accomplished. I have done a lot , but accomplishments aren’t my strong suit.
Today is Friday the thirteenth. I can not begin to explain this feeling. My mouth burns, I hope no one expects me to talk. I like days where I’m not expected to say anything.
I want to go away, I like isolation. I want a woman that changes like the season and only cares about what I care about.
I’m selfish!, why is my mind clouded by horrible judgement.
I can’t seem to understand how to apply what I know into practical application . I know I shouldn’t drive without a license but still I do. This woman told me she like a certain thing, I can’t remember what it was. Now our relationship is spiraling down.
I like a white woman, she’s ten years younger than I am. I can only imagine having sex and kids with her. I see nothing about her that suggest she would be a good wife or person to remain monogamous with.
I do want to keep her, I am a jealous man. I want no one else to succeed before me, I have a dirty competitiveness in me I hate.
I dislike most people, I see nothing in them worth liking. I don’t like to cheat, lie or steal.

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Personally: Black male, Age 30-something, Husband, Father of 2, Brother, Uncle, Cousin, Marijuana advocate, Struggling business owner, Pod-caster, Biker, Tennis player,Aquarius, Flirt, Jerk but all around American. Animal lover, Tree hugger, Black lives matter supporter, Gay right supporter, friendly after a few alcoholic beverages. My Resume: SUMMARY OF QUALIFICATIONS: Highly efficient in administrative management with some small scale and large scale organizations. Excellent interpersonal and communication skills, analytical skills and partnering Self-starter and comfortable in a fast paced environment and able to manage multiple projects Education: Argosy University, Orange, CA. B.S. Business Administration Graduate 2015 Relevant course work Human Resources Management, Business Management, Computer Applications, Principles of Management Accounting, Marketing Management, Business Law EXPERIENCE: Operations Analyst June2016- Nov2016 Advanced Bionics LLC Provide support for manufacturing department relating to Agile PLM (Product Lifecycle Management) System Familiarity with working in a regulated environment under FDA and other government agencies. Ensure appropriate manufacturing supplies are available to support manufacturing requirements. Review and reconcile billing by suppliers, identifying opportunities to better management cost. Administrative support to department, including participation in project teams for providing support to manufacturing. Generated reports as required using data systems from ERP, Siemens (CAMSTAR MES). Student Office Assistant Argosy University March2014- Jan2016 Organized data relating to student admission, academic scoring, personal records etc. Built, computed and maintain all administrative related documents and files relating to faculty and staff. Assisted the Registrar, and other designates in planning, organizing and actual conducting seminars, symposia, graduation ceremony and other events. Verified updates in student’s database and website information using document management systems. Maximized operations in a Registrar’s Office, including diploma ordering and transcript processing. Public Relations Intern Office of (D. Rep) Loretta Sanchez June2013-Sept 2013 Composed correspondence regarding public affairs. Attended meetings, hearings and briefings on behalf of Rep. Sanchez. Briefed constituents about legislative issues and provide guided tours. Consulted with scheduling events as well as assisting legislative aides with administrative duties.

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